emotional by Jeni

I did not expect todays ride to be this challening. the ride for Roses was today. I had originally signed up for the 90 but my legs left me at mile 4. My awesome team mates JD (my angel), Perry, and Ed pulled off with me at the 65 mile route. It was emtional. Why, because my body hurt so bad. My legs, my back, my bottom, my hands and my heart. I realized that This year was way more challenging then last. I think I finally accepted my father’s passing, I realized that when you don’t talk to your roomate as often as you like to, she is still your best friend for life. I never knew how much time she spends with people who battle this disease until we had quality girl talk the other night. I miss those talks….emotional.
Finishing the ride as God intended…Humbling me because the Polka Dotta team has been kickin some miles the this entire week and it was really hard for all of us. Finishing today with JD, angel, got the hug first for pulling me the ENTIRE way through the 65 miles of Wind. The kind of wind that whips you around like a flag. Perry got the second hug…. we were both crying at this point. He rode for his father. Watching him have closure was memorable. I rode for my father… accepting his death hurts. I also rode knowing that the uncertainty of my future is just around the corner. I am not looking forward to Dr. Slice and Dice appointment next month. I never do. But I realized today that I personally have accepted the “not knowing”. I am becoming less self-conscious of my scars and ready to accept what decisions are ahead of me.

Thank you P3C3 for the Challenge, the Emotions, the opportunity, the memories will last a life time.  Will I do this again….. ONE HUNDRED PERCENT!!!